It feels like spring is just outside our reach, waiting till we shift & are able to get our hands out there just a little bit further – until we can finally grasp it with our longing fingers. I’ve been using this rainy time (it also has been snowing, which just feels so odd in March) to plant some flower seeds & planning things that we want to do in the garden this spring. I’ve been dreaming about getting a piece of land somewhere quite a lot recently, watching videos about people renovating old circus wagons or building wooden houses. I wonder when the time will come where I stop thinking that it will happen to me in the future (very far away & unreachable) & finally do something about it.
Some of the books I want to read next month (featuring the best chocolate on this planet (salty caramel)):
‘And, just as it only takes a moment to die, it only takes a moment to live. You just close your eyes and let every futile fear slip away. And then, in this new state, free from fear, you ask yourself: who am I? If I could live without doubt what would I do? If I could be kind without the fear of being fucked over? If I could love without fear of being hurt? If I could taste the sweetness of today without thinking of how I will miss that taste tomorrow? If I could not fear the passing of time and the people it will steal ? Yes. What would I do? Who would I care for? What battle would I fight? Which paths would I step down? What joys would I allow myself? What internal mysteries would I solve? How, in short, would I live?’Matt Haig – How to stop time
Five Feet Apart
This. This film has overstepped my barrier of film-boredom so easily. I thought I lost the ability to fully immerse myself into a film & haven’t cried a tear of sadness about fictional characters since … I can’t even remember. And this month I found it twice. To be fair, I didn’t cry while reading ‘Where the Crawdads sing’ but it touched me somewhere deep nonetheless. Books about survival and journeys like ‘Wild’ by Cheryl Strayed or ‘The Snow Child’ by Nicolas Vanier remind me about the life I would like to be leading. Not living in a city with all its comforts and stressed people, but building something myself and watching the land change every year.
So, if you’re looking for an incredibly sad but also quite well made film, look no further – watch ‘Five Feet Apart’. Fun fact, Justin Baldoni (yep, Rafael from ‘Jane the Virgin’) directed this cute teenage drama.